Fake It Till You Make It...

Today is just a quick post that I wanted to write, as I think its so so important especially in my life at the moment and I think alot of others could relate (atleast I hope they can lol.)
Confidence!!! Some of us have it, some of us don't.
For me alot of the time, Ill have something planned. Whether it be for a meal with a friend I haven't seen for a while, or to a family party (especially if its my partners family,) anywhere really and I will be very conscious of what people are going to think of what I look like. I've been like this all my life, its just sometimes the anxiety is more and sometimes its less and some days its not there at all.
I think that its so sad that I have missed out on doing so many different things because I'm worried what people will think of me and to be honest they probably don't even think anything and I know this.
That's why I think if you are feeling crappy because maybe you don't look 100% the way you want that day or you cant fit into something that you want to wear, we need to remember this is a day and an experience that we are never ever going to be able to get back EVER. And I think for me alot of the time I forget this. Its like we think, 'When I've lost this much weight I'll wear this and go hear' and we should be living for the here and now not for the what ifs and whenevers.  I read something a while ago and it is so so true....



I think the most important thing we can do is make the best of what we have. Like it says get up do your hair how you like it, do your make-up,  wear something nice that you feel comfortable in and don't sacrifice any opportunities or days out because your worried what people will think of you. Its not worth it. If we don't take the opportunities now then we will look back and have so many regrets, than if we get out there and take all the opportunities were not going to look back and think 'Oh I wish I didn't go there and I wish I didn't do this' we will have so many less regrets.
Another thing that I have found and it sounds so silly but honestly it really does work. If your having a crappy day, and I know because I have these often, is Fake It.
Get up, get showered, wash your hair, do your hair, make-up etc, choose a nice outfit that you feel comfortable in and that you think looks nice. This is important. You need to pick an outfit that you feel comfortable in, if you wear something that your not too sure about, you will feel self conscious and that's not what we want. So once you've done your hair, make-up, choose your outfit and got ready the important thing is no matter how crappy your feeling about going is to Smile Smile Smile. And when you arrive to wherever your going, push your shoulders back and your chest out and hold your head up high and Smile at everyone just fake it, be confident if you do these things no one will know your faking it but you. And you will feel better about the situation honestly. Ive been doing this for a few weeks now and sometimes it is hard but it honestly works and if you exert confidence people look at you differently and you instantly look more attractive. Please please please if you are a person who sometimes feels like this don't let life pass you by there's too much life too be lived.

Speak soon Lovelies xxx

Food Diary Week One ...

Hey Lovelies, So tonight is weigh in and Im just going to do a food diary just to show what I ate this week.

Wednesday
Breakfast (FREE) - 2 pieces of bacon, two eggs, beans.
(HEALTHY EXTRAS) - two weetabix and semi skimmed milk warmed in the microwave.
Cup of tea using milk from my healthy extras and one sugar - 1 sin

Lunch(FREE) - chicken salad.
                      - water
                      - mullier light

Tea - 2 sausages - 10 sins
         mash potatoe - free
         pea and carrots - free
      - glass of water

Before bed I drank the rest of my milk allowance

Total sins - 11

Thursday
Breakfast - same as Wednesday

Lunch - ham and egg salad.
          - water
          - mullier light

Tea - Jacket potatoe, ham and salad.
       - one teaspoon of butter on potatoe - 1 sin

Total sins - 2 sins

Friday
Breakfast - same as Thursday

Lunch - two boiled eggs.
          - one piece of brown wholemeal bread with one teaspoon of butter - 4.5 sins
          - water
          - mullier light
          - apple

Tea - chicken wrapped in bacon, peas carrots, broccoli bolied potatoes

Total sins - 5.5 sins

Saturday
Breakfast - 2 weetabix semi skimmed milk. 1 teaspoon of sugar - 1 sin
               - handful of grapes

Lunch - gammon jacket potatoe salad.
           - 1tsp butter - 1 sin
           - 1 tbsp salad cream - 3.5
           - strawberries
           - satsuma

Tea - rice, chicken and pea
      - water
      - melon

Total sins - 5.5sins

Sunday
Breakfast - 2 weetabix and milk. 1 teaspoon of sugar - 1 sin

Tea - Gammon, jacket potatoe and salad
       - 1 tsp butter - 1 sin
       - 1 tbsp salad cream- 3.5 sins
       - strawberries
       - grapes

Total sins - 5.0 sins

Monday
Breakfast - Mullier light and an apple

Lunch - 2 ryvita, cucumber onion and two babybel

Tea - rice chicken peas
       - satsuma
       - melon

Total sins - 0 sins

Tuesday
Breakfast - bacon egg one piece wholemeal bread with butter - 5.5 sins

Mullier light
Apple
Satsuma
Melon

So thats my week in food, its quite boring I know but just wanted to keep a note of it.

Speak soon Lovelies xxx

My Motivation

Hey Lovelies Im back with another post. To be honest this is an inspirational post for me. Im going to post the few and only photos I have of my self when I was smaller and was more comfortable with myself. I am happy now but in all honesty when I was this size I was more comfortable with myself and just felt more healthy in general. Please bear in mind I which was by know means skinny I was still a size 16. Anyway enough of the ramble, these photos are just something for me to see, remember and push me forwards when Im feeling down.



Heres me and Mason this was taken around 3 years ago I think.



Another pic this was taken on my 19th Birthday. Me and all my girlfriends went on a night out dressed in burlesque it was brilliant and so much fun.



Here another picture of me and Mason



Me on a night out.




Another picture of me on a night out again lol.



This is one of my most favourite pictures of me.



Me on the right xxx



Me and my littlest brother who is now a lot bigger than this lol xxx



Please excuse a very drunken me in this photo. I was 13.0 stone here size 16.





And heres a more recent photo of me this was around 8 or 9 months ago whilst I was pregnant.

So I have a long way to go to get back to where I was but I am determined and these pictures just give me that motivation.

Speak Soon Lovelies xxx

Red Lippy OOTD

Hi Lovelies back again thought I do a OOTD post. These pictures are quite old but I love them. This is the outfit I wore to my partners cousins wedding. It was a beautiful day and so many people commented on my outfit and said it looked amazing, which really made my day. This outfit is a little out there especially for a wedding I suppose but I really wanted to get dressed up and this is what I decided to wear. Please keep in mind that before these pictures were taken I hadnt had my photo taken for about two years as I used to hate being photographed. But my mom popped round to see the complete outfit all put together and she insisted I have my picture taken.



So starting with the nails. I actually ordered these online and they came in a set of ten, they were hand painted by a lovely lady who did these custom ones for me. They were very reasonably priced I think about £3.00 for the ten. I loved them!!!! My ring is my engagement ring.



Next up my bag. This was from a bag stall in my local shopping centre it was £12.99 I loved the roses and the diamonte trimming, it was lovely.



Next my hair slide this was my most favourite part of the whole outfit. Its a hair comb, was custom made by my beautiful mom, the bows and roses were handmade from scratch its absolutely stunning. Availiable to buy on Etsy.







My shoes. These shoes were so comfortable. There Firetrap and I brought them from the M and M Direct website I think they were about £25.00. The bows on the front are shoe clips again handmade by my mom. She sells many different styles in her Ebay shop. They are a brilliant way to make a plain pair of shoes stand out from the crowd.



PLEASE EXCUSE THE BOOBS. So next the dress. It was a thick halter neck dress which had a full circle at the bottom. I wore a white petticoat underneath just to give it that extra 50's look. The dress was around £30.00 and the pettiskirt £20.00 both from the same seller on Ebay. He sold many plus size dresses similar to this one all very beautiful. I also wore a bolero just to cover my back and arms which was £10.00 from ebay.

















Afew more picks my mom took give you a little look at my makeup which was very simple.



And heres Colin ready for the wedding. He wore a light grey suit, a white shirt with black trim detailing and some black shoes.

Speak soon Lovelies xxxx

My First Weigh In

Hey lovelies, back again with another quick post. Just thought id pop back and give you a quick update on the Slimming World class I attended.
 So we arrived at 7:30pm and went straight into the class, we were greeted by the lady who you pay sorry I dont know her name yet lol. Then we went over to a small table at the back of the class where all the newbies were sat. Our leader whos name is Kate talked us through the Food Optimising Programme which is basically there diet. Although to be honest it doesnt really seem like very strict diets the I have tried before. Alot of foods are free and you dont have to deny yourself anything as you have 15 sins a day for your naughtys.
So after we had gone through our newbie talk the actual class started. Kate our leader had brought in some healthy dips to put out whilst your infront of the tele as this is a tempting time to snack as us plus size girls well know. Then Kate went through each persons progress from the week to see how each person had got on and then at the end you can set yourself a target to reach the following week.
All in all Kate was very friendly, she told us that this is her full time job so you can ring you whenever you wish if you need a little guidance or just a pick me up. Everyone else who attended the class was very friendly and smiley.
Im a couple of days in now and I feel like its going really well looking forward to weigh in on Tuesday.
Im going to post My food diary on Monday night so you can get an idea of foods that are aloud and which foods are naughty sins.
Speak again soon Lovelies xxxx

A New Start and A Little Introduction

First of all Id like to say Hi for popping along to have a nosey and a read of my blog. I decided to start a blog so I could keep a diary of my life and so I had something to look back on in the future. I am a 21 year old mum of two beautiful boys. Mason is five and Bailey is 6 months. Since having Bailey I have gained quite a bit of weight and am now bigger than I have ever been before. Tonight me and my beautiful mother are attending a slimming world class and thats also going to be something that Im going to keep up to date with on my blog. I am very determined to loose the weight I have gained since pre pregnancy and just to become more healthy in general.
I have been reading plus size blogs for a while now and they have really given me alot of confidence. And if my blog can help even just one persons confidence then its so worth it. I think its amazing that there are plus size girls blogging out there, as they truly do give girls like me the confidence to be more happy and excepting of themselves. So im hopefully going to post again tonight to let you know how the class went.

Speak Soon Lovelies xxx